I still sing glory

Three pieces of the same similar song...

A sign of it starts here should be displayed.

The other rocking way to say stop. Or the finest way to send to hell every-one-thing…?

It was Monday and I certainly got enough energy. Enough to work hard again but nothing else. Tuesday… I have barely energy to move on and again I make a recall to that conversation. Why did I stop? I guess I have with this the 6^th part of it ‘cause it’s been so many tries to get here and the truth is all of them are true.

I guess playing the catharsis I did stop writing ‘cause there was no blood, there was no rain, no water in the river flowing. Not so good flow that could let glow another piece of inspiration. And it could be this is the song number “again” of the stop it right there—NOW!

How many months did I let pass… friend forgive me. But that was not true, all intentions, all what I’ve said believe me the half. Not because a lack of truth, but a lack of time and life feeling.

Now I’m back. Am I? I don’t know at all but I got it, you got it…” we all got it”. When it’s a normal day at work and we just cannot succeed with the same silly rows with coworkers, same rows with people outside. With our hearts-minds?

So I took the chance to bet on me. To bet for all the time missing, passed, future, in our imagination, in our plans… bet for all the time we have everyday ‘cause you know something? Time is one of the few things we somehow own. As it is to life. I don’t know if my tomorrow’s happy five hours will become in 8 hours. So I take the chance NOW!

If there is a road to fulfill, if there’s some ideas to clear, some projects to create I understand. There’s not anymore the old naïve angel. Not the one of tonight. I wanna run, I wanna tell you that everything is going to be I don’t know, but it is going to be.

The less we do, the less we know. And we only sometimes instead of thinking that life has a path and we are in that lovely, interesting, awful, boring, exciting one. We are. We are all of the fields on earth. We are the I don’t want to wake up now and the tomorrow I want to get to Taipei. We are the today I love you and the tomorrow I don’t know. But I want to.

It’s just I found we fake so many things, even the things we think are normal or things we use to like. And not at all. It’s like living in a gray’s scale but between black and white. Then why not to turn left or right but do something?

I guess life presents itself like a picture, like a labyrinth what we may or should follow. But is that place, the comfortable zone what makes me tired of. I don’t want anymore to send mails and tell tomorrow this is going to happen ‘cause I have all the strength in my veins, and I don’t want more tomorrows. I need them I know. Tomorrow is like a drug, but I want to remove bad habits of believing in a tomorrow and start writing in the todays.

I’m the first one who heard this song. But life is precious in a music library. So don’t excuse me but excuse me if I play a similar song written in similar ideas. What I’m trying to say is that perhaps it was not talked at all.

Thank you ladies and gentlemen and let me not fake it but play it loud ‘til I get the proper colors again.

So Marcie took the train. She knew she was taking a risk. Love was there, still trapped, her uncle as well. But she had to take this chance. It was two fronts and she was at the middle. But this man was the lost key to get them all back. It was not only a family situation, but it was the time of not fooling around anymore.

- Yes?

- Hello? May I speak to Mr. Kurchenko?

- Who is this?

- I’m Marcia, Love’s old neighbor.

- Kurchenko on the phone. Tell me, how’s your mother?

- She’s fine, but some others not so sir.

- How d’you mean?

- Well, I’m at Pittsburgh, Love suddenly took some kind of holidays and I need to see you. I’ve got a personal message for you.

- I think old messages should be kept Marcie. We are just not over that line by the moment.

- I know and I didn’t meant to bother you, but we’re not so many and we have no option. Love needs you and we need your help.

- After so many years of chemistry, suddenly I have someone who remembers about me? May I say…no?

- Look, we are not teenagers anyumore and I don’t know your picture about me, but what can I tell is that Love is not on the right path and this is not a try.

- Please meet my son at the entrance of the Mercy’s. Anything you need to tell me, you can tell him. Goobye.

- But…

A pissed father could be the worst person to talk to, but never as a grandfather.

- Mars!!! Jesus!!! How long are you thinking you can hold onto this? Your dog’s mad. Even me!

- Mom I called Kurchenko.

- What??? If you had a future, that was not exactly the way darling.

- I know mom, but I really don’t mind to break the rules if this means we’re all going to get a long.

- What did he say?

- Well, he asked for you. Probably you can tell why ‘cause I don’t.

- Leave it for the next meeting… And, what else?

- Well, thank you for your comprehension madam! He will send his son to talk to me.

- Nikolas?! What the…. Marcia this is too far. If Love was lost, this wont help.

- Well, you can come and switch. He’s the only one who can take us back.

- What happened to uncle Robert?

- He’s fine, but we suddenly turned into their strategic slaves.

- Great, should I start praying?

- You should since the very first time. Gotta go.

- Have you seen the day? ^Please don’t let it rain over you kid ok?

- Ok mom. Love you!

- Love me when you’re back. Bye

Mars was confused and thinking about past times. It was not that Love was strange, just that holding a mafia CV wouldn’t help his interests. Not when he was about to take the vows before his brother. Too late to realize tat was not his world. Of course, not his business to leave family’s business close to bankruptcy. He was not anymore one of them, a trophy for their interests, at least not for Mars view.

Let’s wonder a bit:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01X8z42_9_U

And one of my new inseparable best friends.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWTuooIgoBs

Thank you! Come back again!

And remember, don’t be strangers!

A gap in between

A love was lost, Fader, My Sun… I was for such a long time ago, trying to keeping in mind some new song. To fall in love with some new band ‘cause there was too much dust in my old bands. And considering that my music professional delivery service is gone… I definitely took the chance. So I opened my heart, if it sounds too cheesy it has to be, music needs heart before being listened. And gave my time to surf through my daily radio stations. Actually I should give you my precious list ‘because another thing I believe is good to do, is to share music. I hope you find something interesting there.

Getting back to the point, I was at the bus stop and then heard this song “Sweet Disposition”. The title sounded to me like a corny and pinky teenager thing, but the song (in my very personal opinion) is really good. This guys (The Temper Trap) are fresh and I can feel them, which means a lot. I guess when music makes you feel like dancing, jumping and very happy we are at the –right- place… or band ;-)

My last happiness lift brings me to tell that winter was a long period. It eclipsed many feelings in me and a huge mountain of wisdom started to be climbed.

Have you already experienced that? When you enter in a new job, when everything is new? When everything that used to be the same old smell, suddenly turns into new colors at your childhood's place. I guess part of the things of coming back home, is to re-recognize yourself into the new portrait, and let me tell you that –That- is pretty hard sometimes. But as we say what can’t kill you, makes you stronger. Yeah… I find a great truth, especially in that meaning.

First days at work as usual make you feel like going blind, be careful with all things you say, be fast and clever with some other things you have to learn and say. And finally let yourself go without fearing much. I would say for work you need experience and … beyond. Professional experience- Emotional experience. That’s a lot if we were talking about money! But… it isn’t … Thank God!

The other part is people. They become your family as long as you understand that staying ¾ of the day out of home mean that home is bed and life is work and all things that come around. Ok, except weekends, the moment when you create a “Stand by” off of the stress and super duper new ideas glowing in your mind. So, basically people become into your nice aunts, bittersweet neighbors, lovely nieces and nephews, annoying brothers, careful mothers, fathers… and how to complete the portrait? : You.

All of that is kind of a review and a mere coincidence just in case you can find some similarities. I guess that’s more or less what completes the profile. Yeap, here we go again. And it’s amazing how’s everything working and how tough it goes when you change a team of 5 to a team of 40. That’s like a little candid funny farm. Not so crazy of course, but we all know that we people love to be different, to be ourselves and to be free to be ourselves. What come next? A vegetable soup. Then eat it and swallow it with all the different components. That’s yummyliscious (trade mark word from a new friend). I find profoundly interesting to talk to people and listen to them. Their work is somehow part of a language as well and I love it.

Before I fall into a circle I guess this is the moment I would say I must jump into this world and fulfill every part of my self-mind with it ‘cause it’s the present, “my present”. And as far as I see my beloved mountains and sea again, this is what I am and I’m very interested to seeing what’s in front of me.

Time is going sometimes slow, sometimes in a blink of an eye its lovely Monday again. And what I can see is that everyday is kind of a brick. To build a house needs like thousand of them to be well structured. Of course the way we place them is the way our nice house is going to be finished. So I would recommend myself to deeply enjoy it and understand and be patient in the way of “bricking”. Anyway it’s happening again and probably again and again…

I heard “you say you have no time? Hello! Welcome to the real life! Enjoy your job and people there ‘cause that’s what you’re probably going to do for… the rest of your life!”. I do agree and I do agree in re-taking those old papers where I left the lines where “what I really want” was written. As solid it is, as less you will doubt.

Wish you a great weekend.

Sophie was looking through the window. It was a cold and rainy day. Jeremiah didn’t come for a week and she started to feel something sad in her heart. Everything was covered by the Autumn leafs and you could smell the winter was getting closer.

Where could Jeremiah be? She thought he was the happiest and fattest cat ever. Then the questions started in her mind… did he took some holiday? Did he sleep somewhere far away, that next day he was not able to recognize where he was and come back? Was he tired of the food, of the games? Did he find new friends?

All questions were spinning around her bedroom and raindrops were calling each of them.

Radio Stations

I hope this list someway fulfill your music needs: )

www.absoluteradio.co.uk

A British one, they play alternative music and I would say is very Brit. All new great bands might be played here and somehow I don’t know why but musicians love to kick off their work at the G.B. giving an ear to this, means you’ll get future hits before anyone ;-)

www.krockradio.com

Veeery alternative style. I mean, if you’re into the Peppers, Franz Ferdinand, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah… and so on. You belong here baby!

http://fm4.orf.at/

If I meant “alternative” well this is just alternative-alternative-alternative. The world’s underground music and… Austrian music as well. Good to listen something new and different.

http://www.lemouv.fr/

Like our last friend but not so alternative with French music as well. Good to chill if you catch a nice block of music otherwise you can find good rock as well.

www.njoy.de

The posh one. But they can surprise you and insert some interesting stuff. If you don’t want something “too deep” here you go with these German guys. Alert: at night you might love hip-hop otherwise… run for your life.

Any comments or suggestions about some interesting local radios I'll be happy and appreciate you drop me a message.

Wish you a pleasant time!

Fresh Ink

Well, I guess for this 2009 the rollercoaster I was in it's quiet now. I mean quiet 'cause I take the chance (or being naive) to say it is calm.
I have a diary and it has dust, I have a blog and it has dust, I have so many beloved friends who I would love to write a proper letter and the idea is shaking the dust off, even this dust story could continue...
I just know this is a start (again) and this was an end (again) and we're living in a huge sometimes circle theory, sometimes it has not a special shape, its life and we know we are in it. Are we?
(Are you?)
Cheessy happy 2010. I wish you all the best, but health first 'cause without health, we cannot see how lucky we are 'cause we are alive.
There should be a story...
(...Should there be a story?)
I asked the tree of wisdom if there was a story, it said "yes, there's snow and there are some polar bears eating themselves." And I asked the wind and wind said: yes, there are thousand new stories but you should leave your past with no regrets. And finally I asked water, and water said "everything is product of the flow, so let your life flow through the river of itself."
But I forgot to ask to fire, and suddenly fire replied: Burn all your cards, but burn them wisely. Burn everything, don't stop your life 'cause of too much thinking.
And then, I dared on how to formulate this question to God...
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