Without missing a beat!

Past, old times, the things I’ve done. The things I remember. They are all my beloved ghosts and my beloved memories. But… what’s to deal with the past? Just accepting ourselves the way we did things and the others did next to us.

Whatever comes next is just free will.

Take it or not… That’s the story of my days here. Where things happen like if the flash of the camera was broken and suddenly every single thing I see is like my eyes were twice bigger than before.

Tonight I want to talk about all the connections I’m doing. All those conversations, all the schemes and the ideas I’ve made from everything I typed in my mind last days.

And yesterday was a very interesting cable from a friend. She’s writing a blog as well but with “the other guys”. So she was treating a very interesting theme for me ‘cause as you know or if not then I confirm again, that all that has to do with spiritual healing or religion concerns me. So part of the article she talked about, treat kind of idea that spirituality is a very important field in humans’ life, and that we should interact with this part of ourselves. Other ideas included were about some way to train our brain in a good way, tending always to think positive so we can attract positivity too.* I founded really interesting this article. and I’m quiet sure if you read it, you won’t regret. Her blog is in Spanish, but there’s a link where you can read about her entry in English for those whose Spanish skills are under construction.

Besides I would like to talk about our right of liberty of expression. This was the theme of the week … sort of academic issue. But I really thought about it in all the conceivable fields because recently, I found that we people sometimes would like to connect but there’s something that even we are trying our best to get communicated it seems just like impossible. And I can tell you couple of examples of this. So regarding to this space, where we can type ideas and then by commas and points we try to draw the best way sort of a map of ideas or feelings. Well there is one side of the coin, but again regarding to our right of freedom of expression… I would say go, go and say all you have to say and say it all out loud. ‘Cause it’s this right that give us the key to understand ourselves telling the world how we feel. It is our right to tell the State, the church, our family, friends, and people the way we feel or need to get related to others. Of course anyone has the chance to give a negative or positive response, but then we had told how we think or feel. If you see something is not working at your work, at home, wherever! Just go for it and express your ideas. I guess there’s no better opportunity than that capacity that we humans have and call –Communication-. And how many often do we really use it?

So come on! Go and express yourself. It is the best way we can respect our ideas, respect the others ideas and the best way we can share. A very human expression a very important skill we should improve.

By the way… Happy Halloween everybody! Boooooo!!!

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* Psic. Malena Calva:

El secreto de la felicidad

http://qkfromspain.wordpress.com/2009/10/28/el-secreto-de-la-felicidad/

Dr. Richard J Davidson:

Lab for Affective Neuroscience

http://psyphz.psych.wisc.edu/

(Why there’s a special holiday story always? Yes, we fell..)

From Pensacola Dreams Productions here we go...

The phone rang and Marcie was shaking. She knew it was the last night she would see the lights of that car. Some scars and some stories were told that night. As soon as she hung up the phone later on that night… She knew it. Jack won’t be back again. And Love was knocking the door desperately…

- Yes?!

- Marcie?!

- Yes?!

- Marcie can you explain to me why should I wait under the rain out here?!

- Oh! Love! I’m so sorry! It’s just that I was… huh…I was…

- Oh Mars… What happened to you?!

- Why?! Nothing! It’s the pumpkin pie, it didn’t work well.

- What? What are you talking about? We are late Mars and you worry about your grannies pumpkin pie? Hmm… I really don’t understand you Mars. Anyway, you are a chemist. Don’t worry; you’ll make it next time. Can we go now?

- Well I just wanted the kids enjoy it, now they’re going to be upset.

- Marcia... When were you involved in this kind of trouble?

- Well, the day your mother invited us to this family party. I wish I was a witch, at least then I could justify the Halloween massacre I did with the pie.

- Mars c’mon! You did it great! Excellent! Can we go?

- Aaargh! Ok ok. Take the corpses pie; I’ll take my jacket…

From our Spooky friends!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bz2Ho62dVr0

And what about… Trick or treat???!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqVV4GSYrNM

New chances might be brighter

I think or better to say, I thought a lot of things during last months. I thought life is always like a circle and thought this circle was my space, my habitat, my everything. But life gives and life takes and so it was.

I was living in a comfortable place called my little world. And I guess, one of my aims was writing about it, telling the whole world how the tic-tac clocks of my life in a crisscross with the others lives, were done. I believe our life is a miracle, which in an intersection with the others lives, you get an awesome thing called universe. Universe of opportunities, of chances, of happiness, of sorrow, of madness, of defeat, of revenge, of all the things that might make you feel alive and some not so lucky times, it could be putting you closer to feel somehow grey inside. I know this sounds deeply sad but I mean it in a way that, sometimes, could be that some things at first sight, especially problems, seem to be the end. Really, making a re-call to R.E.M., like the end of the world. And just in that little moment, it is. Everything is dark; it’s done my friend –game’s over-. And what about the rest? How to take the correct pieces to continue?

I had an explosion; I would like to call it the big-bang theory of the change. Perhaps there’s only one big-bang theory we know but what about if it was the product of the re-arrange of the world? In my case it was.

So there was me, fighting with all my guts. I tried to fight and go back to my very special circle and it didn’t work. Have you ever felt like sometimes even you fight so hard… some things cannot be done? Well, it was like this for me. And I’m not a psychologist… (Maybe I should) but I would say my very personal opinion the steps were one by one made like this: First, you don’t want to believe it. Then you hate it all, then you blame the world, then you poor little soul, none comprehends you and finally you set yourself (on fire) up to a very high trampoline where anyway, world was waiting for you to jump. It was just that it took you soooo long to understand that that was that way to follow… So I asked myself several times if it was a good idea, sometimes on my new home-road I ask myself if it was the best choice. But there’s something in front of me I can see. It’s not so clear for me now, but I can see the road has a very little flag where an important sentence I feel in my heart is written: new chances might be brighter. And I thought ok this is a reflection of a cruel oasis but it wasn’t. I think I cleared my eyes several times before that view and it was still there. Everyday I get closer it’s clearer to me.

In a little review, sometimes probably it’s not so healthy to swim against flow. Sometimes if you are too tired, could be that time it is not that you didn’t fight, it is that you have to face a new fight. The moment is not that clear I know, but sticking to my heart I know. If Sting told “Let your soul be your pilot” sometimes could be the only eyes you have to take a decision. Sometimes people can tell you thousand theories about what you should really do and it is ironic, but then you saturate your perception, suddenly all roads go to heaven and which one is the best? Then, the answer is just up to your heart and soul. Whatever they tell or whatever they make you feel comfortable, that’s the right direction to follow.

My adventure was not over (thank You God). Life in Barcelona was changed for a new survival challenge at the asphalt jungle… well, let’s say another asphalt jungle; my hometown; Mexico. And you know what? I used to love traveling and I certainly do. But what I found is… how to conquer other lands when you haven’t conquered yours? I guess that was the main calling and I accepted the challenge.

So here we are now, with a lot to write, with honesty changing my inks. With some old good friends, with some lost battles and with some dirt on face. Here we are with an unforgettable love for music, for colors, for books, for more traveling but for the best part; the unforgettable love for life.

Pensacola Dreams, 1972.

So it was you and I always thought it was Love behind that fog. When are all your shadows going to disappear? I thought you loved Shawn. Then you tell me you want to drive to Alaska? What about the book I gave you? Did you tell your friend about it? Don’t hide again that music. It reminds me of Mary Anthony and the wood box. Have you seen her scarf in Vienna? She was just great. Porcelain skin… just like yours.

Oh Darling when is this going to…

-Mars?!

-Hmmmhh?

-Maaars?!

-Hmmm yeeees Mooom?!

-Aren’t you going to the lab?!

-What?! Ohh no… what…

-It’s niiiine!!!

-Jesus! No please not again…

From our dear friends from the Fenix Records, here we go:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o5rhhQbyYV0

And from an old jammin' friend:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRZ2s_VMffQ

We have got the time

What’s the worst part to continue with an old project? Why we leave things that we used to like or to love to do? And when’s the right moment to go kind of “back” and keep on going on the track?

I have suddenly thousand questions and I’m trying to find the answers through a kaleidoscope. No doubt colours are changing day by day, from time to time or from one song to the other. Even people, even our cells! We are in a continuous change where forms are constructed nearly by the same materials but there’s something moving in there. Nothing is the same and not because of that, should be bad nor melancholic.

Then I jump back into this city and dive into all those things that I used to do but not any longer. Why then? …I ask myself. Why did I stop or when is the moment to continue or re-arrange a new appointment with our past habits?

I think I used to love to sit in a little square and have a beer but it was just done few times, I think I remember I used to listen to music by nights, in the darkness, when everything was off. The city is so beautiful by night as well. When silence, that precious thing, comes out and you’ve just got enough time to enjoy it.

When was the last time you listened to music without doing anything else but that? – That was one of the questions my music teacher made me once and I think I just made it not so long time ago, but not as often as I would love to. Then, what are we doing with our daily stuff? The one that we forget? Like just laying quiet or sitting quiet and then letting the music or the silence invade our rooms… Fantastic when we become rich by enjoying to do nothing and then really nothing comes there to interrupt that. Actually then I think about the surgeons… how is the life of a cardiologist? Such a poetic job but such less time… Doctors. Since they’ve got invisible wings to save us, I would say we are very lucky when we have got the time.

Anyway… I’m again swimming everywhere but not where I would like to. About keeping getting the time, I mean that, because it’s obvious I interrupted my writing for a while. But then, it was the time I was eating boxes of tangerines like Regina Spektor says in one of her songs. We dump some good things that might be reconsidered and continued. Perhaps with a different motivation, but in the same way.

Another thing that concerns me is to listen to the things that come on my way by “accident”. I don’t attribute things happen just by casualties, since there’s always a reason in my very personal opinion of course. I’ve got a very interesting video that I would love you to see. I think it was the best visual present I’ve got this year. Have a look and make your opinions. That would be awesome to think for the next entry. To continue dreaming or better to say it’s not time for being negative.

-Miss Mars, what are you going to do?

-Well, to wait until I have a clearer direction to follow.

-I think we already talked about it.

-Right, but its uncertain the way you want us to get that information. Because I want to understand the only thing you need is neither an object nor a material thing.

-Yes you are very right and I’m afraid things might get worse. Our new friends have jus decided to break their codes to declare war to us.

-I don’t understand.

-If you can imagine, they are much closed people, like us, they don’t let suspects enter their circles. But one of our families did and he thinks is the best way to bet.

-How do you mean?

-Tadeusz, one of our young boys, he just fell in love with the daughter of “the Sicilian”. One of the big friends, the one who’s in charge of the East coast. And of course, we need to make some deal to get part on the cake.

-Like what?

-Tons of products might be delivered and might become into “interesting pearls” to our interests.

-I see

-It is not that easy, it is not we only need a pair of ears, we need you to act. It could be there are some papers we need.

-What?! What the hell are you talking about?!

-I told you, it was not that easy…

From our dear dear friend here we go to get some freshness for the summer:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AcpXBJZvqiQ&feature=related

And just to remember old times…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IhZKh0sXT1s

Azul Turquesa

It’s pink and blue and blue and pink. It’s all about colours when I think about the last days here in Barcelona. It’s about all the unsuccessful conversations at the bars and the clever comments from strangers. It’s all about when I said this city is like a lobby, like an airport and like a multicultural milkshake where each citizen of the world, would like to work or underline his/her very own style.

This weekend (two weekends ago) was the bluest weekend of this year, but it was not about being metaphorically blue in a way of sadness. It was me visiting my dear friend; the ocean and all the pretty or beautiful “accessories” that complete the picture living in there.

Barceloneta (very famous beach place at this city) could be as well as a colourful catwalk, as well as the place where loads of tourists and friends get along together to spend an “of course” “nice day” at the beach. This city is amazing, and this place can show you well, the fashion tendencies of the season, the next season and years ago seasons. It’s like the fashion confetti where I ask myself if people these days use to get dressed or to get daily costumes. If you’re looking for clichés, here’s your dreamed place; fashion, retros, punks, poshs… The happy couples, the families, the friends, gay people, ice-creams, dogs, tourists, more tourists and could be a little dot in the space: you.

And even in all that happening, there can be left time not to get lost and think about life and relax or have nice talks.

I’m happy that very “simple” things like getting to the beach are awesome. If you go with friends there’s so much to play with balls, cards, frisbees, guitars… bongos! Watch the other people, to try not to bother much the others with a volleyball ball, could get a pretty hard mission… even harder than playing volleyball itself!

And when you go alone, it’s completely other story, get a coffee, watch people, have a sit and smell the breeze or give a walk and have some dreams about ships and the ocean…

I think sometimes we forget those simple and great things, but I recognize we also don’t forget and continue enjoying those brightly things in life. I really wish the summer was here, but what I’m really glad and lucky about is that it takes me only half hour to get there; to I would say… Dreamland.

- You'll see, this "fellas" have just settle their ass over the American business. And American business could be a huge market... But unfortunately, the cake’s distribution is always a little bit risky or... problematic. No, no, no, don't roll your eyes before you know what we are talking about. We just need your best performance at some place.
-Can I ask what does this mean?

- We need you to pretend you need to work or better to say -you- are supposed to get a job at some friend’s… cafeteria.

-Well, I've been doing the same "here" for you, then what for?
- Its not so simple Miss Mars. "Here" you are only doing the "practical term". Now we need you to act.

- Ok. Where's that place?

- Like I said, it’s a friend's business.

- A "friend’s' business"???

- Well, an Italian cafeteria.

- Ooooohhh Myyy Goood!

- Yes, well, you know, not so hard, some serving...

- ...and?

- Hmmm some dog with snoop nose there.

- I don't know what to say, I don't know what's worse, me almost dying here or... there.

- Oh don't worry, we will look after you.

- "Oh!" yes??? How the...

For blue instances, because not to leave the little blue in blue, by our dear Edie Brickell this awesome lyrics with video (the closest version to the original) included:

PICTURE PERFECT MORNING

Edie Brickell

I haven't learned to say goodbye
Hello itself is hard enough
It kills to let a good thing die
And I don't want to see it go bad

Picture perfect morning
Just before the dawn
And city lights are dying
Sing in the cathedral
Face in the stained glass is crying

I won't let myself look at you
And see you like I really do
It's hard to believe
That you're really here
So I just pretend that you're not there

Picture perfect morning
Just before the dawn
And city lights are dying
Sing in the cathedral
Face in the stained glass is crying

Picture perfect morning
Just before the dawn
And city lights are dying
Sing in the cathedral
Face in the stained glass is crying

And when my plane flew through the rain
It shook the wings and people screamed
But I was so sure that I'd see you again
I was not afraid of anything

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U84LVaPQDw4

And from our new friend, we found in his mind this nice song to complete our play list, thank you Steve! (Lyrics included to sing! Yeah!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h5qx3fuTUHM

Motivations-Expectations…

So the story begins…

February, what could or would come this time of the year, when we are again climbing up the mountain, in the case of those who work and in the case of those who study? January was like a settlement onto those things where we made a parenthesis, but February is the real expression of getting across the road or at least getting involved in it. Then why expectations… well, it could be our expectations concerning this year, if we were wishing before, now is the time when we can work in all the things we were thinking could be better to improve. For example: work again. And what about motivations? Well… this case excuse me but there is no connection or not in the way as I see. Last months I was thinking about this word because there’s a lot of movements in here, my friends’ lives or even mine. Everyone is sometimes worried or asking herself or himself, which way people’s actions or “special movements” base their motivations on? And, what about the mixture between motivations-expectations?

There’s now the time when I go to ask to my friends or listen to them, what are them asking about others (by themselves), what’s people motivation to act in this or that way… I didn’t get an exclusive answer or a special trick, just to guess what’s in people’s minds. But what I found as a very reliable palliative was not asking ourselves much about the others. Could be people is more simple than we thought or there should be some realities that might be not told… who knows. Not me of course.

So I decided instead of getting back to my work of special “gravedigger” I decided no to ask so many things. In the end, answers will come out with time, because people sometimes is not able or not brave to tell all they have in their minds. We also are the same line so… what to do then? I would give myself and you, if you find it practical, not to ask so much when you see what’s clear or when you don’t want to see what’s clear. If your desired job turns bad and you see it’s obvious your relation to your buss is no longer stabled as the “honey-moon” it used to be, if your partner tells you is not able to work with you anymore ‘cause found a better way to sell cold beers by his/her own, or if your boyfriend/girlfriend can’t be with you anymore or cheat on you or your lover just decided to take holidays to Madagascar leaving you with the tickets to fly… There are in my very personal opinion two ways to confront, accepting and continue walking or asking yourself forever what was wrong. It’s a fact we should consider what we did wrong, but certainly as far as I know there’s still no special machine that translates us why people change suddenly. Sometimes could be our mistake, sometimes could be in purpose and sometimes could be people or the moon! Even people, like us, they don’t know sometimes how to act in the correct way. It’s always easy to judge the rest but harder to understand there might be nothing and nothing that was your fault; it just came that (unlucky) day to your life.

With this I should thank some friends who motivated me to write this and to find out that could be sometimes there’s nothing to do. Some other surprises came to my life last nights and found out that could be that those things or matters you thought were lost suddenly appear in a different context.

In whichever way this can help you not to blame yourself or the others from different successes in life… then we are at the other side.

I would like to complete this with a very important thing, Rome was not built in two days and good things always will cost much more than easy things. Always is easier to do nothing ‘cause this means no work. As hard as it sounds, as hard it’s still for me to get it. But for this 2009 I think I wrote in red this important motivations and expectations: not so much expectations about the things I cannot change or not depend on me and motivate myself to work hard on those fields in life that “possibly may” need some special extra-polish.

Good luck and happy cheesy Valentine’s Day, we could even prepare a surprise with a welcome back from Love and Mars. Stay Tune!

From our old friend of the happy meal girlfriend we’ve got:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=crqM-Hmx5rY

And from the jealous brother we took the best of his play list to give you a particular (hope not offensive for those who love good music) song by our girly girly dear friend:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whfmqZrwoxI&feature=PlayList&p=D374080675CFFDAA&index=0&playnext=1

Happy Thursday!

Tonight, Tonight

So this is me, again here, at “home” almost ready to leave. It’s always me who’s trying to give an answer to everything that happens in my life and even I’m sad of it or very, very excited, I’m tired. I’m still on the way of confirmation; let’s say I don’t want to care about knowing everything. Sometimes we expect things that never happen or sometimes things we never expected suddenly happen. But more than looking after the miracle, I just sat and saw myself crying like Alice. It’s stupid to control everything and even worse to think miracles are just about to happen. It’s a big truth to me that no matter what I do, things are going to happen on it’s right time. Doesn’t matter if its Tuesday or Sunday, things are just happening and the most exciting of them are the real effect of a sudden expression, no-matter-what.
So I was expecting a lot of Xmas things, like if I was the best person ever, like when we are thinking we are good, we are paying with every single good coin to life, in cash, we are going to get something great… Well it’s just a dream! I confess I’m a professional dreamer, I love to dream and expect, but I comprehend sometimes we need to fall and crash hard against the floor to get further and not get stuck on superficial or stupid things. I’m now convinced that the most important thing for me, is to find myself. I wanted to be in Austria, in Spain, in Japan! and suddenly a flip gave me the right view to know I don’t know where, but my heartbeat tells I should get back for a while. Since then, I’m also a fan of controlling every single little moment of my future but heck no! I don’t know, I feel I want to come back home for a while and then think seriously about the “big jump”. I know now I’m not in hurry anymore, while the pieces of this puzzle are taking its right place, I’m also taking the chance to live today, to breathe and be happy. There’s no rush because it’s also true that we cannot know the things that are going to change our ways suddenly, like those miracles I was talking about before. I was so sad last month; December was a tough month with no clue about anything. Now I even cannot say that everything is done, no, but I’m feeling better because all those people around me (and some little old things from my past that I found in old boxes), told me that it’s fine, just while your are doing what you think is correct by the moment, then the rest can be written slowly and mixed with different colours.
I’m glad about this hill, I still don’t know where’s also Marcie going to end, even Love, but they told me it’s impossible to love without faith and this is what I’m lucky I didn’t lose, my faith. In many, many people and some things and myself. It could be dark, blue, gray, but I still have faith to guide me because I certainly found I felt like blind but I feel there’s a hand.
Should I say Happy New Year?! Or should I say God bless you all? Or should I say this is me, this is us and there’s still a lot to say with words, with music, with silence.

Under a happy construction!

So our friends of the Happy Meal brought us these good vintage tracks, why not with a good tea with milk.?

Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=56Y-qZQ_DTk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_f7LF3IiKI