Where is time going?
I think this will be a personal question for all my life. Is routine “the great eater” phenomenon? And even I woke up every day and look over the street, almost "the same" but it is true, every day very many different things happen in our life, it is just the tricky game we belong.
Then we think if we chose water instead that carrot juice... will it make it different at all? It’s strange, like not the same... but the same.
I think I'm worried. I think I would love to be a very professional journalist, but until I can reach just the view of that dreamed mountain, I want to say my concerns.
It concerns me how things are going around the world. I started saying this as a joke, like why every time I go back home, there's a terrorist attack against the UK. But then I decided to leave the t.v. on that news channel and the crisis started in my heart, then in my brain. Today for example I was trying to sleep at the train and when I was in that dark side, when you want to start really sleeping, something cried, called me, and it was like if a hand pressed my heart with the "what if a bomb explodes now" feeling. I thought thank to the terrorists too, thanks to all those guys who created such a horrible horror movies to make me asleep for almost a week and suffer when I was a , and thank you to those who put pain or fear in our minds. What if we never saw those news, then I ask myself what if I was never watching those stupid alien movies that scare me that strange today? We learn to fear but we also can chose to fear in some way I guess. An article proposed to make a kind of course where you could learn how to lose fear to fly. Great I thought, but of course, small letters... 400€ for a poor student's pocket is too much. Then I will try again to confuse myself with the clouds or the tasty meals the British Airways serve. Even I hate the way they control people since last terrorist attacks, they are very kind. Even they won't pay me for saying something good about them like this.
But I don't want to focus in crap information. This is not happy Sunday information. I'm really worried about the people involved in wars. Then if we read history who really wins? There’s always dead people, kidnapped people, people suffering losing the beloved ones, losing parts of their body or leaving scared for Jesus who knows how long. This is probably utopia but, what is in their mind when "they" say, “when we are able to suffer, then we’ll be free”. Is Bin Laden still alive? I only know there are some people we see everyday through that box and think poor of them but what do we really do? I try to pray but sometimes I feel like an ant. I know they have their reasons but I think as all we do is thinking... this is not correct and who will stop us, who will make us react and who will tell them the truth is deeper than the love they pray for their God because I believe there is the same God for all of us no matter our very free and independent beliefs. It doesn’t match to me God wish us to suffer, if we promote his wisdom is great, his heart is great and we all are his children. No one has this truth, to me is in everyone’s heart and -it is easier to hate and attack others before accepting we cannot find God inside ourselves-. God’s, energy of life or spirit of life. Whatever that connects you to life because for me there's not ONE truth. But for sure one race is involved, we HUMANS
